எது அழகு ?
காலைக் கதிரொளி நோக்கி நிற்கும் பனித்துளியா ?
காற்றில் மெல்லிசையுடன் சிந்தும் மழைத்துளியா ?
உன் முகம் காண விழித்தே நிற்கும் கண்மணியா ?
கண்டதும் உன் செவ்விதழில் பூக்கும் புன்னகையா?
இவையெல்லாம் அழகு தான்..
அப்புன்னகையில் மறைந்து ஒளிரும் காதல் தானே 🙂
“உன்னை நேசிக்க யாருமில்லை
நீ நேசிக்க யாருமில்லை
இந்த கோட்பாடுதான் என் மதம்!
யாருமற்ற இந்த மதத்தைப்
ஏனெனில், உன் தனிமை போக
உனக்கான இறுதி வாய்ப்பு, நான்!
இது கடவுளற்ற மதமில்லை…
என் தனிமை அழிய நீ தான்
என் அன்பு என்னும் தெய்வம்!
வார்த்தை ஊர்வலம் நடத்தி தீர்வு காண உத்தரவு போட்டது
மனதினுள் கொதித்துக் கொடி பிடித்து நிற்கும் கோபத் தீ…
துயரத்தின் வெளிப்பாடு தானே துன்பக்கடலிலிருந்து
முத்து முத்தாய்ப் பிறக்கும் கண்ணீர் துளிகள்…
இந்த காலம் பறக்கும் வேகத்தில் கூட
நிமிடத்தின் நீளம் உணர்ந்தவர்கள்…
இடையே ஊடுருவும் இந்த மௌனம்
நேரம் நீள நெஞ்சம் கதறும்… அறிவாரோ ?
சிக்னல்களுக்கு இடையினில் ஒரு சுதந்திர போராட்டம் – சிட்டி டிராபிக்
ஆடி அமாவாசையில் பிறந்தவனுக்கும் நிலாத் துண்டு கிடைத்தது – அம்மா
கருத்த இரு நிலவுகளுக்கு கீழே
வானவில் நிறங்கள் சேர்ந்து நீளும்
வெண்மைப் பிறை – குழந்தையின் புன்னகை
உடலின் பெரும்பான்மை எடை நீரினால் தானாம்
நினைவுகளின் சுமை தெரியாதவன் சொல்லியிருக்கக் கூடும்.
தன்னந்தனியாய் ஒரு மரம்
கீழே சருகுகளின் மாபெரும் பொதுக்கூட்டம்
தனிமரத்தின் வேருக்கு உரமாகிவிடுங்கள்
செயற்கை மலர்களில் தேனெடுத்து
நம் நட்புத் தேன் கூட்டை நிரப்பிக் கொண்டிருந்த
நானும் ஒரு தேனீ தான்
இதய முலாம் பூசிய நண்பர்களே
With sparkling silver hairs making their special appearances, thinking about getting older is not the pleasant of thoughts, but it becomes much pleasing if I think about how I get newer and better getting older everyday. So, apart from the birthday rituals, what can one do to make the day special? Sometimes, it is okay to look back at the path you crossed just to motivate yourself to move front. I guess birthdays are good time points for that as doing it everyday might make it again a ritual. In turn, you get something with a purpose to do on your birthday 🙂 And thus, I counted 27 last Monday.
If I could recollect the 2012 sequences in my life, anything I touched or thought about failed miserably and it was a tough time getting back on track. With people I thought great no longer appearing great, the vent for my social aspirations looking blocked, getting that elusive degree looking fictional, victimization in a weird financial scam when in need of money looking brutal, abnormal deaths of few close people shocking, my love looking buried and starting up Dhaya seeming far from reality – I started feeling down and down wondering whether I would ever be able to come back. Be it giving up or persevering with, both were equally difficult options for each of those problems. In fact, I gave up on a few but persevered with some. With the ones I was persevering, there was no progress on anything for quite some time. I had to tell myself to stop measuring and to just hold on to the efforts. There was constant stress on mind and heart and I struggled to look beyond these. To hold on to these without them really affecting me, I started looking at my other unfulfilled interests like learning music, traveling and exploring new places, implementing a pet technical project idea, learning photography and few more. Traveling combined with photography is what I ended upon as I was already biased towards them. Little did I realize the values it would add to my life. Then on, I made few planned, few dynamic, few official, few adventurous travel trips. From places around Bangalore and Karnataka, the list started expanding to Mumbai, Goa, Srilanka, Masinagudi, USA and the list continues. Next in line is Kashmir, the Great Lakes Himalayan Trek with a group of unknown people.
Starting to look beyond boundaries, interacting with new people, pausing to understand a new culture, following a new lifestyle(for a short time though) with new rich varied experiences, every travel has changed my perspectives on various things and has given me manifold ways of looking at life and I’m totally loving it(I will certainly write a separate post on my traveling). Not that traveling has solved my problems, but it has improved my tolerance and I no longer feel restless or wrecked. Traveling also teaches you humility when you feel you are nothing in front of those stupendous landscapes, mighty rivers and deep oceans. If you are nothing, your problems are also nothing. Next time, if I feel happy or sad or great about ‘I’ or sympathize with ‘I’ , I know something is wrong and all I would do is pack a bag in five minutes and get lost somewhere.
I begin to write this post with a little bit of personal frustration about how people trying to live simple are often misjudged and consequently misunderstood. Especially in an urban setup, other people looking at such people as an unevolved species not fit to live in this earth has become so common. In fact, I’m reminded of my numerous such experiences now. This post would be a reflection of my thoughts about the simple-living concept and how is it impacting my life.
My definition of simple living is making a living consuming only resources that you really need. I don’t know how I started living like that. It was not through a deliberately thought out decision but it just happened on its own. You are what your habits are and that’s what probably had happened to me too. Just after I got into school, my family’s tough financial situation naturally introduced me to this way of living. Second hand text books, self made note books from used one side written/typed sheets, repeatedly re-stitched uniforms were my norm those days. One half-a-liter milk packet was enough for a family of four. When I wanted to go out somewhere, taking an auto was always out of my options and I used to enjoy walking down that few miles. The habits thus developed naturally continue to exist even today and they are the main reasons contributing to my choice of living simple.
People can always change their lifestyle anytime if they are willing to, but external factors based on how they want to take their life further will affect their choice every time. When you come down to settle in a new urban place with a good paying job and new found independence, most probably you would opt for a relatively luxurious life as it is attractive and easily available. Clearly, there is nothing wrong about it. But for few people, the shift could be a life changing external factor. In my case, it brought out the strong compassion in me. I realized that my characteristics were just habits until then because I was doing them with not much alternatives, but doing them against attractive luxurious alternatives was something that would add meaning to my characteristics. That was when I started thinking about simple-living seriously.
I look around and witness the mad race going on. It seems to me as if the entire humanity is competing to own up the world’s resources without even thinking what they are going to do with them. First, I want to be out of this race that would deviate me from having a peaceful and colorful life. I want to explore the race but not to get succumbed to it. Second, I firmly believe that by consuming more than what you need, you are essentially making another human run for resources aggravating that artificial demand. Does one man quitting the race helps? Yes, it certainly does because 20% of the people in developed nations consume 86% of the world’s goods. You never know the power of one. And that’s not all. The more you own, the more you end up taking care of them and that becomes your life. It makes you miss the colors in life and sometimes, it even makes you lead a purposeless life. I want to experience each and every scenery in my life. I want to live like a nomad ready to go anywhere anytime without a second thought about my baggage. Simple living is the best way I know as of today.
Let’s see what happened when I actually tried it out. In the place where I live today, it differentiates me much from the majority of the people around. I don’t have that insatiable desire to own the latest tech gadgets while there are people around me continuously flaunting about them. I don’t have the interest to know the latest happenings in Hollywood or Bollywood and there are people who think I’m a less knowledgeable person. I walk down to places when others tend to reach them only by taking auto rides. People give me a sorry look thinking about how mad this guy must be to waste his time like that. I have a policy of avoiding traveling using those luxurious transport services and prefer to take normal public transport. And I know of people deciding their trip only based on the availability of these luxurious services. Does that give them the right to judge me as a frugal? I just want to live like those millions of ordinary people. I have 5 sets of pants/shirts/tshirts, one pair of foot wear for all occasions and you won’t smell a perfume when near me. Is it a sin by modern standards of life? One question I’ve faced at least a hundred times is “Dude, don’t you have any other t-shirt to wear?” My phone bills are less than Rs.300 a month including a data plan, is it really a problem others should be concerned about? My mind has gone berserk several times in these experiences but I just smile to get away with it.
For all those of you who created those nice experiences for me, I would like to point out one thing. Most of you also have come from a mediocre background. Most of you led a life same as mine few years back. Most of you now have a changed lifestyle and I’m not here to argue whether it is right or wrong. There are plenty of reasons for changes and I understand that. Similarly there are changes in my lifestyle based on my thoughts, reasoning and beliefs and I’ve decided that my lifestyle would be this way. Why don’t you understand that and stop treating me like a person who has ran out of his senses? I’ve never bullied anyone just because their lifestyle doesn’t match with mine, why should you do that to me? I’m not asking anyone to live like me. I just want people to understand that my kind of living is just a lifestyle choice – just like how they have chosen their lifestyle, I have chosen my lifestyle to be this way. I don’t need a respect but I don’t deserve any disrespect as well. But whatever you say, I would remain this way only. If I have to act against it, I’ve to deliberately force myself into a new artificial way of living.
Simple living has taught me some beautiful things in life like efficiency, self-control , ‘let-go’ mindset and to remain down-to-earth and humble. It makes me attach my life towards some goals rather than things and people. When you own something, it somehow makes you arrogant with a massive sense of entitlement. Try to ‘let go’ of unnecessary things in life and you become a human with a big heart. I’ve felt the difference. You can feel the difference on your own. Finally, I bet if you follow simple living, you wouldn’t need to project your life to appear interesting in social networks; you will be actually leading one.